Just, ARRGGHHHH!!!!!
I’m going to be THIRTY! And I won’t have a regular salary in September. And I need to buy a new iBook for school, and while it’s a great deal, it’s still around 1200 bucks. And I can use my FA money to pay for it, but that won’t be til September, anyway. And I haven’t heard back from my FA appeal, and I’ve heard nothing on my scholarship app, and while I DO have tuition covered through my GA spot, I DON’T have my mortgage covered, if you know what I mean. And I want to have a baby, badly, and it’s taking all the strength I can muster to NOT try right away, but then what if I wait until August, and what if I do get pregnant right away THEN, and have a baby in May/June when I FINISH my M.Ed but don’t have a JOB YET. And how do I look for a job, or something, when I’m either gigantically knocked up, or a brand new parent? And what about bills and such when I DO have a baby and am not working, since I won’t have any mat leave! And what if I can’t FIND a job that pays more than teaching, or makes the M. Ed financially worthwhile? I know it will be educationally valuable, but unconceived baby needs new shoes, know what I’m sayin? (And I know babies don’t need SHOES for a long time, but whatever.) I am just going nuts nuts nuts. My whole mantra for everything is that everything happens for a reason, and it’s a simple idea, but it works for me.
SO PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, DEAR UNIVERSE, LET IT ALL WORK OUT. Thanks.
Well, you are younger than I thought. I thought there were four years between us. 🙂
I am sending you some baby shoes RIGHT NOW. Where do you live?
For what it’s worth, I’m facing lots of the same issues, only I don’t have my tuition OR my mortgage paid, except by student loans, and I’m not sure how the hell I’m going to manage the spring semester with a baby due in late Jan/early Feb. Just the same, I’m happy as a clam. It will all work out! It will, it will, it will!