I. Cannot. Focus. 

On the to-do list, 2 chapter summaries, a powerpoint, and a Clicker lesson. Oh yeah, and an essay for a scholarship.  This sucks, because the .ppt is started, but the content is better for Clicker.  I have an idea for my .ppt, but haven’t started it.  Same for the summaries.  I have about ten sentences for my essay, but I can’t pull it together. I have zero excuses for having none of this done, since I haven’t even HAD CLASS in three weeks, you know? Motherfucker.

In addition to that, I had a sub today, and was observed by my principal on the suckiest day to be observes, as I’d already handed out FOUR detentions, SIX ‘lost breaks,’ and dealt with a 4 on 4 girlfight all day, that carried into math class, where one said "I can say whatever I want, I don’t care if [principal] is in the room!"  I don’t know if they realized that he was there to observe me, and not THEM, but whatever.  He suggested he come back to see another lesson later in the week, in the same conversation that he mentioned that there would be a handful of suspensions going out this week for the girl-fighters.  I told him that whatever day that happened would be a GREAT day to come back. Heh.

Seriously, I’m losing my grip.  I haven’t run because of the weather.  It was supposed to be good today, too, I even put out my clothes so that I could come home and change and go right out, but by the time I got home, the weather had changed from mild and gray to cold and snowing. Well, FUCK.

Well, FUCK, indeed.  I’m feeling very, very fucked right now. FUCK. And I can’t focus.