Nope. Still nothing.

As I said to persephone, “the only reason I have any hope for this month is that I was(am) so convinced that I’m not.” That may not make much sense, but it’s the best I can come up with.

Now that the dreaded 2WW has added a third W into the mix, I’m starting to edge towards symptom-watching. Right now, for instance, I’m tired. Super tired. I was tired last night and the night before, too, on Monday I fell asleep through the news hour. I forced myself to stay awake last night, because it’s only pathetic that I’m tired, certainly not a symptom of pregnancy! Because I’m NOT, right? And I had weird cramping last night, localized on one side of my abdomen, and more like a sharp pinching from the inside than the dull vibrations of my normal cramps. So it must be something I ate, right?

My one and only other 35 dayer, I started in the early morning of Day 35. I woke up from the sensation of starting. Tomorrow is Day 35.

In the lunchroom today, the teachers at the end of the table were talking about conception. I can hear these conversations from miles away, now, and the person talking to me turned into Charlie Brown’s teacher as I strained to hear the words that went around “…ovulation was early…. not really NOT trying…. this one we tried . . . . .”
Then, I worried that I looked too eager, even though I wasn’t looking at them.

Sigh.

In other news, I put my Snappity Graphics presentation on the lunchroom table last night. I half expected to hear people saying “good lord, did you see that hack’s ‘photography?'” but instead, people have been complimenting me all day. It’s weird, I have some confidence issues, I guess. I’ve seen several people taking order sheets, though, so it may make me a few dollars here and there. We’ll see.

Next question: Do I test tomorrow, Day 35, if I wake up dry? pros: it would be the best day to call in sick, and I would know. cons: I could still think “it’s too early” and end up buying retail HPTs this weekend.

You know which direction I’m leaning in.