Nope. Not yet.

To recap, my cycle lengths, working backwards: 31, 31, 35, 28, 28. I’m at 33 and counting.

I had positive OPKs on Saturday, Oct 16 (CD23) and a lighter, but still positive, on CD25. By CD27, they were negative. I have no idea what they would have been before, so I don’t know if it was The Surge on the 16th, but whatever. We, ermmm, responded to the command of the OPK. So, let’s just say that that was the moment, which makes me 10 DPO today. Possibly.

Symptoms? I don’t think so. The letdown of the dream not trueness of Monday put me off symptom-watch for now. I keep expecting to start any minute, even now, I wonder if I’m starting. So far, my hunches have all been wrong.

And, in my haste/miscalculated ovulation date, I used up two of my three internet HPTs. I have ONE LEFT. I almost ordered a new supply for next month, but hesitated. I want to bleed first, and be sure. And I’m still not sure.

So, because I love keeping the internet apprised of everything that enters or leaves my vagina, I will either start bleeding sometime this week, or I will whip out the HPT on Friday morning. Maybe. I might wait til Saturday (again, I don’t think it will be an issue, since I feel NOTHING) because my housewarming is on Saturday, and I should really be at school the day before, since it’s almost all teachers that are coming. However, I have this notion that I don’t want to go to school if I test positive; I don’t know how I could conceal my excitement if I tested at 6:30 and was at my desk within the hour. My Plan for a Positive is to call in sick to work and just be excited and have a day of “I am SO EXCITED and also TERRIFIED!” before facing the unsuspecting public. Of course, there’s the dilemma of Friday coming and me being “Oh, I might as well use it up, it’s going to be negative anyway”, and if it was positive, THEN what? I HAVE to go to school. And try to hold it in. Oh my gah. That would be hard.

Either way, I’m pretty sure that this just isn’t the month. I feel like I have had an okay LP length (they say at least 9 days, and I’ve had that and then some), so I may have just stressed myself into ovulating a week late. I’ll remember that next month, and just keep testing til I see the OPK double line.

You’ll note, though, that I still haven’t reordered a stick-supply. Damn hope coals!