When I first got pregnant, it was cool, but even COOLER was that right away, two of my favorite internet people got pregnant, too.  It was so cool to be knocked up and squealing to Emma as she made her way up some congested freeway with her mom, "I can’t believe you are TOO! This is SO COOL."  And D, at bizarrogrrl was just a week behind me, and being of similar mind, I thought it would be cool to have her to compare to as well.  And then, poof, no longer pregnant.

I still really enjoy following along, though, and hearing their complaints and being really, totally, completely happy for them.  But recently, apparently, the bellies are starting to show. Emma wrote about it yesterday? the day before? and today, D posted a belly pic.  She is so pregnant, and she’s due a week after I was.  It’s weird, how I feel about it.  I’ve discussed the awkwardness of knowing I’m following along with both Emma and D, and how for me, it’s really not a sad thing. I’m NOT sad. Or angry, or jealous, or anything. It’s just…. surreal.  Especially with the picture. I could’ve been THAT pregnant by now, you know? Figuring out how to get a belly shot to show all y’all, and wearing new clothes, different clothes.  As it is, I’ve lost 15 or so pounds this summer, and I’m wearing last summer’s clothes most days. I don’t think I’ve bought anything new for clothes all summer, with the exception of a 3 pack of white v-neck tshirts last week.

Today, I went out to City Forest and didn’t do the bog walk, but stuck to the trails.  I don’t know how long I walked, maybe 45 minutes? But it felt good, and I was alone with my thoughts, and only saw three other people.  And I couldn’t help but wonder if I was pregnant this summer, would I have done that? And will I do it next summer? And is it weird to be working on losing a belly, while desperately hoping I grow one soon?

Regardless, Emma and D? You ladies are fabulous, and your babies are going to be phenomenally gifted by having you as their moms.  Carry those bellies with your head held high, because you are both amazing women that I admire.