Leaving the gym tonight, I just felt good. Good.

Ingrid weathered the transition to her new room at daycare, and is doing fabulously, and even starting to veer into the realm of not necessarily wanting to leave just yet. Today was that late-winter mild & sunny (you know, like 34 degrees) when we left, and she just ran down the sidewalk towards the car, and it was a flash of awesome.

Work is going well, I can look back on the last year and see progress in my specialty, and I can look forward and see ways to progress even further. Rock on.

Our money challenge has been good, too, not buying stuff for over a month. I’ve filled online carts (Land’s End had a KILLER sale on toddler clothes, and Ingrid’s busting out of the stained seams of her fall/winter wardrobe… but I resisted) and kept my eye on the refurb iPods.  We’ve also filed our taxes and received the return, which has paid off our oil bill, as well as our oil tank bill (it was 0% interest for 12 months, but I just wanted it done) and replaced Dave’s timing belt (a necessity as well). His car is done next month, and that payment will start going directly to ING, and the old oil payment is going to be added to my student loan payments. (This goes against the Dave Ramsey plan, who says to not even invest to retirement until your student loans are paid off, but I’m doing it a little differently — putting more into savings each month than on my student loans, as we could never get a deferment or forbearance on the mortgage in the event of financial emergency. Oh, and we contribute a lot to our retirement plans as a matter of principle — hello, they match! But ‘freeing up’ money from other payments doesn’t make it disposable, it’s just reallocated. ANyway.)

And the gym! I Go To The Gym now. I actually only made it once last week, on account of having to take tourney pics, and I realized I missed group power. (Not like, forgot, but MISSED it.) It was a realization not unlike the kinds I had when I quit smoking — like when the tech company I worked for began it’s crash and burn, and I didn’t have a cigarette? I knew I was a Non Smoker then. Missing GP means I Go To The Gym.

After GP tonight, I had another one of those moments, when I went down to the fitness room and saw every machine I’d ever used occupied. (A rarity in the mid-evening, the fitness room guy was even surprised.) What was left was a recumbent bike, which I’ve never used, and I almost left because of that whole "fitness equipment terrifies me" thing, but then I conjured up Jeanne, and reminded myself that it was just technology I had to figure out, so I did. I did that for about 15 minutes until an EFX thing opened up, and switched to my comfort zone. But even THEN, after five minutes on that, which I’ve always done on manual/quickstart, when I moved my magazine I kicked it into the preset course selector thing, and I’ve been intimidated by that, worried that it would be too hard or that it go into warp speed overdrive and pitch me into a wall or something, but instead, I rolled with it, and did 25 minutes of a "weight loss interval" course, and…. survived!

I also signed up for Move & Improve, a spring exercise motivation program thingie, run by the hospital and my school is a partner site or something, I don’t know, there was a table with free clementines, but you track your activity and I think they have prize drawings and all of that. I’m kind of excited to start tracking that (next week) as it’s super basic (not as intricate as sparkpeople) and hey, prizes!

Anyway. It feels weird to feel like I have my shit together right now.Especially the gym thing, because the money stuff and work stuff is all brain work, which is my comfort zone. The body work is, and always has been, the most uncomfortable zone, and to be sort of… conquering that? Is pretty huge.

We filed our taxes, and figured out exactly where our refund is going to go. Basically, we looked at the list from my last post and figured out that we should do energy-use-reducing stuff first. Our refund will pay our oil company for the last fill and the oil tank replacement, in full, and get a timing belt for Dave’s car, and then three windows for the living room. We also each get $150 to spend frivolously, so I plan on getting an iPod nano for the gym. (More on that later.)

Then, if the stimulus plan passes, we will match that and replace the woodstove in our living room with a pellet stove. Something pretty — I don’t like the black boxes on pedestals, even though those are cheaper — and then we have a secondary heat source, that uses waste wood products, and that supports our local economy — pellet mills are a newish industry in Maine.  Since we already have the hearth and a place to put it, it will be nice to have a ‘fire’ to sit by in the winter. We’ll keep working on replacing the windows, room by room (in this order: living room, master bedroom, guest room, dining room, kitchen, bath — maybe reverse dining and guest, we’ll see) and next year we will replace the roof and refrigerator. All of those things add value, as well as (hope to god) improving our heating bills and dependency on fossil fuels.  With oil just skyrocketing — FUCK, I just don’t want to prebuy this year at 3.49, then next year at 4.49, etc — rather, putting in a second source means we can choose based on price and efficiency. And, no matter what, it will be nice to have a fire going on cold nights. Pellets make a lot of sense for us, because we do live in town, we don’t live on acreage we can use to self-harvest our fuel source, we don’t have a woodroom, or a pickup, or a chainsaw, etc. Plus, it’s clean to store and burn. In a power outage, we’d need a generator, but realistically — we live in town. In the ice storm, people took generators around and let people get an hour or two of heat to prevent pipe freeze, and hell, maybe we’ll buy a generator in the future anyway, or a battery backup.  I’m excited about the plan, anyway.

The gym — I’ve added cardio, which I think is a good thing. I’ve been doing Group Power since September, and definitely feel stronger and more confident in my body, to the point that now I stay after GP (an hour long weightlifting to music class) and do 30+ minutes on a cross trainer machine thing. (I’m working up the courage to use an elliptical, and the cross-trainer is like an elliptical without the arm action.) But, while I have generally had no use for in iPod, preferring instead to eavesdrop, no one is talking at the gym, and the two tvs are set to ESPN and the Fox News Network, and closed-captioned, and as far away from my machine as you can get, so, yeah, boring. And the magazines generally suck. So, I want an iPod.

But, can I just be really proud of myself for a minute? I am going to the Gym. Regularly. And, yes I’m not a teeny-tiny sorority girl or whatever, but I started with 1kg weights on my bar and am now doing 10kg (on each side — so 20kg, or 44. something pounds, and the bar is 5, I think, so, like 50 lbs) and I can feel the strength in my body now. I had tried a step + weights class at the beginning of this term, but, ohno, step is not for me. It is "balance on one foot, trying fruitlessly to catch up and not trip" so I bailed after 3 classes. But, the premise was that it was a beginner fitness class — 30 minutes of step, and 30 of weights, and I was blown away by how…. easy… the weights part was. It would NOT have been without group power. And now, instead of that class, I am going on Wednesdays for just cardio in the gym. As the weather improves, I plan on walking the circle at least a few times a week, too, and as the days get longer, an after-dinner walk to the park will be a nice way to get some movement in. (We are ALL ready for longer days and warmer weather — after-dinner time now is reading books and watching Jeopardy, but we sure need some more outside stuff to do, and light to do it in.)

My next step is to get some vitamins going. Yes, I suck. I never even finished my first bottle of prenatal vitamins from my FIRST pregnancy, let alone kept up through the second pregnancy and 15 months of breastfeeding.  When I taught I had a good system going, taking them in each week and taking with lunch, and I’ve just realized that there’s no reason I can’t do that at work, now. Plus, I have an FSA with it’s own debit card, so it wouldn’t even be spending money to use it. I did Omegas (Flax oil, I think) and a big women’s vitamin, and something else, I’m pretty sure, but I can’t remember what it was. Must do some investigating.

So, pellet stoves, using iPods at the gym, vitamin regimens — any valuable input on any of those things is always appreciated.