Monthly Archives: April 2005

How long is too long?

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Well, I’m feeling crampy as hell today, so I’m not too hopeful about this cycle. Fuck.

I’ve been off BC for over a year, now.  We’ve been actively trying since June of last year.  Some months, more than others . . .since when, october, maybe?, we’ve been super duper trying.  There was one month (September, I think) where we tried not to try, because of our vacation next month, but did have one unimpeded round of GOF.  After that month, we went to every other day, and last cycle I had the great OPK result and started PreSeed, and this cycle we had JUST started a vitamin regimen right around ovulation, so that doesn’t really count.  Next cycle will be vitamins, PreSeed, and maybe? OPKs, I’m not sure.  I feel like I can rely on my CM pretty well, since the OPK sort of proved to me that I was ovulating.

So, then, we’re in April.  10 months of TTC, with long cycles, and nothing doing.  I plan on talking to my regular doctor this month, about TTC and other things, assuming I’m not pregnant (and I really don’t believe I am, but you know, Schrodingers cat and all) and then what?

I’m lucky in that Dave is ready to do what he needs to, jiz in a cup, get blood drawn, whatever.  I’m okay with getting various tests, but how does it start?  How does it go from talking to your GP and saying "So, we’ve been trying really hard and nothing’s happening" to the next step? Does a GP schedule/perform those tests, or do you get referred? Do you get referred as a couple?  Dave and I use the same practice/office but different docs, so would it be done in house? 

We go on vacation in two weeks.  I remember booking the trip and being sure that I’d be pregnant. And I’m not.
(ETA: No, I haven’t tested. . . but I’m crampy and bleh and having my usual PMS symptoms.)

Yeah, “Zen.”

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I was pretty ambivalent, as I’ve mentioned.  I’ve been very zen about the whole TTC for this month, until today. Today, I slept in, and around noon ate one slice of my leftover mushroom pizza.  When we get pizza, it’s always on Friday, and we eat 2 slices for dinner and the other two for lunch the next day. This is a long-established pattern for our pizza weekends.  After the first piece, though, I felt like shit.

I bucked up and went to the mall, because I needed to see if I could find Teva-like sandals for Dave.  It was packed, and smelly. I smelled cologne.  I smelled BO.  And Olympia Sports sporty-smell was grossing me out.  I got so hot and clammy feeling, I left without buying anything. No, wait, that’s a lie, I bought the last 5 truffle eggs at CVS, as they are Dave’s favorite candy and were on clearance from Easter and won’t show up again until the truffle witch version of Halloween.  Even then, holding the packages in my hand as I was checking out, I kept shifting them around, certain that the body heat from my fingers would melt them and ruin them.

I drove to Target, and it too, was packed, so I came home and fell asleep. Again.

I ventured back out to Target, still packed but maybe less so, bought what I needed and came home.  Dave made cheeseburgers, and now the whole house smells like them. Even the bathroom and bedroom upstairs, and he used the range hood exhaust fan.

My boobs (nipples, especially) have been itchy since shortly after ovulation, and on one nipple, I have a dry spot that is slightly smaller than a dime.  Conversely, Dave noted in the shower this morning that my chest, shoulders and back are more broken out than he’s ever seen. WTF?

I’m not going to test tomorrow. I’m going to test if I’m late. That’s Tuesday, and I am going to a workshop that day, anyway, so I wouldn’t have to deal with kids, which is the major issue there. So, yeah. We’ll see.

Updates

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Some updates to my favorite computer things:
Bloglines now offers PACKAGE TRACKING which is like the marriage of peanut butter and chocolate. YUMMY.
Gmail now has 2GB of storage, and rich text formatting. 
That is all.

Neighbor Kids

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There are two little boys that live across the street.  They are the only kids on the street, and they are always playing outside. They have a trampoline, and in the summer, a pool, but most noticeably, they have bicycles.  They ride up and down, all year round.  They are probably 6 and 7, definitely no older than 8, and the younger one has a thing for Dave.  He talks to him all the time, and Dave hasa never really interacted with small kids, so he never knows what to say, but he does his best.  Last night, when Dave got home, the kid was waiting.

"I bet my bike is faster than your car!"  (Remember, Dave’s car is an Impreza RS 2.5, "Like the WRX but with a bigger engine.")  "I bet I could beat you in a race!"

Dave just sort of agreed, and then the kid said "Subarus are the safest kinda car!" and Dave said "That’s why we have two!" and then came inside.

We went out for pizza later, and came back with our pizza and a new RC car for Dave.  The kid was waiting for us.

"What are you doin?"
"Getting supper," Dave said. (The kid has ZERO interest in me, by the way, I’m just a girl with a station wagon.)
"I’m just pickin’ my wedgie! My bike seat is HARD ROCK. My mom is gonna get me a new seat.  Do you have a bike?"

Dave shoots a look at me and whispers, "Don’t let him see the car!" so I grab it up and head in, and Dave gets the pizza.

"Good luck with your wedgie!"

This morning, drinking coffee, we lok out the window, and there he is, riding up the street, stopping at our driveway, looking around, getting off his bike and messing with the pedals, looking at our house and then riding back down towards his house. Over and over and over.

Now, it could be that his mom has said "Don’t go past the house with the fence," but I think the kid is just wishing Dave ould come out and play.

I told Amy about it and she said "he probably SENSES that Dave should be a dad, and is just giving him some practice."  Aww.

Either way, it’s pretty cute.  I need to learn the kids name.

In other news, CD37, nothing showing but a dream that I had a gushing period and was sad.  I’ve had several dreams of getting my period this month, so maybe that’s why I’m so ‘whatever’ about the whole deal this month.  I was thinking about testing tomorrow, but I think I’ll wait until I’m late to test. If I have to call in to deal with the emotions, I have to call in.  I have 20 sick days or so left, so whatever. (Teachers get lots of sick days because it is our number one workplace hazard, germs fly in schools.  We get 15 a year, and can roll them over to the next year.)

I also sent out my app for a scholarship of unknown value.  I feel like a good candidate, since it’s for graduates of Wa. County schools, of which there are 8, and WaCo is the least educated and least populated and most poor county in the state.  Plus, I had some kickass help from PJ & Hermia to make it just right.  So, cross your fingers on that one, okay?

Daydreaming

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It’s raining, my kids were horrible for the sub and are cranky today, I’m tired, so I’m doing a little daydreaming right now about my trip to NYC.

I’m thinking the last weekend in June would be good. It will be the very. last. weekend. of my twenties, and a big hooyeah trip to NYC would rock. I’ve had lots of offers of lodging, and lots of ideas for transportation, and I think it would be awesome to take y’all up on that, with the caveat that you’ve always got a guest room at my house, or at the lake, or with notice, at the mountain. Seriously.

So.

I could make my way to New Haven to visit (and meet, actually, weird how I forget that I’ve never MET her) my favorite Yalie. (Aside, my grandfather had a PhD from Yale. I never know that until this year. I wonder if his thesis is in the library, or something? It would be interesting to read, since he died long before I was born. Maybe I could beg a field trip to the campus to find out.)

From New Haven, I can train to the city, and spend a night in Brooklyn, and maybe one in Manhattan, if those folks are around. I will have to pack lots of syrup in exchange. And maybe whoopie pies.
I’m thinking a night in New Haven, and three in NYC, and head back.
If it doesn’t work out to stay with those who’ve offered, does anyone know a good hotel in a safe neighborhood that WON’T break the bank?

In New York, I’d like to first and foremost see PEOPLE. I’d love to visit with Muse, KB, Brookie, and of course, Persephonee. I would LOVE to meet up with AnneMarie, either in the city or by taking the LIRR out to her. I’d also like to see Avenue Q (is that even possible? Or is it sold out for all eternity?) and maybe something at the Upright Citizen’s Brigade Theater, if that’s running then. I don’t know what else — Pearl River again might be nice. I’ve always been fascinated by Ellis Island, too. Maybe I could go there. Is there anything else that would be going on in late June that is can’t miss?

Mmmmm, NYC in June. Sounds good right about now.

Completely unrelated, I am way too excited that we spring forward this weekend. Don’t forget!