Jealous?

Our room looks so good. Um, anyway.

SInce I’ve been chained to a paintbrush and/or dustmop for the last several days, today was laundry day.  I did a few loads this morning, talked to some internet people (as per usual) had a bowl of cereal, and then headed to the pool.  I spent three hours at the pool, walked home and made a grilled cheese sandwich and had a beer, and then before I took a cool shower to wash my hair, I took an OPK.

Positive. Whoa!  That’s a full four days earlier than i expected, at least, more like 6 when I look at my average cycle lengths in my charts.  This is also the first time I’ve measured ovulation post-synthroid (I didn’t do anything between miscarrying and my first post-m/c period except be pissed off and sad, basically) which I now wonder was the cause for my long — and lengthening — cycle lengths.  I had another TSH done recently, beginning of the month, and my OB said the numbers were great, and it was my choice to stay on it or go off.  I chose to stay on, and then she said "and when you get pregnant again, call us and we’ll keep checking on it."  That WHEN made a world of difference.

SO, yeah, hypothyroidism can cause long cycles, so it’s something to maybe ask your doc about.  I really, really feel like it might have had something to do with my pregnancy loss, and sure, all us miscarriers look for SOME reason, somewhere, but I had a bad feeling from the first phone call I got that said "We want you on Synthroid starting ASAP, where can we call in the script?"  I feel much better taking the little 25 mg pill (a tiny dose, really) each day.

After my shower, I dried off and laid on the bed until Dave came home, which had the desired effect, so now I’m technically sorta in the 2WW.  There will be a GOF session or two in the next few days, for good measure, but yeah. Weird.

Especially post-miscarriage (OF JUSTICE!).  It’s a tired cliche, but this is the point of no return on the ol’ rollercoaster of TTC. the OPK testing is the click-click-click of being hauled to the top, that bright blue test line, making the reference line cower in fear, that’s the release.  Acting on it, you have to throw your hands in the air and scream "AAAARRGGGHHH!" (What, you don’t do that? Pilgrims!)  So, here I go.  Prepare yourself.

Next Project

The room is done. And yes, it IS hot!  Especially when you remember that A/C in Maine is not commonplace, and our only cooling device is a tower fan we got last year. So :P, Texas. 😉

The next project is to work on the curtains, but depending on the weather… that’s a rainy day one for sure.  And then the next project is the TTC one. Oh yeah.

I had one period after the m/c, and now I’m gearing up to ovulate, by my calculations.  I’m using OPKs this cycle, just to be sure, and I reupdated my ticker over on the right under "Babyish."

It’s weird, really, to be back on the wagon.  I feel ready, if it took this month, I might have to do some creative legwork to finish my grad school thing (GA and coursework, both) and if I don’t and it takes next cycle, there would be other things to worry about — job hunting, etc.  So. I’m not going to worry.  What happens will happen, but after trying for almost a year the first time, I don’t want to miss any more chances.  As it is, with my long cycles I get a few less than the average person each year, so i want to make the best of any opportunity.  So, for now, I am doing OPKs, and calculating based on my pre-pregnancy/miscarriage cycles (which were also pre-Synthroid) and just. . . making the wish, and hoping everything turns out the way it should. We’ll see.

So hot… almost.. done…

Man, is it hot.

We are almost done though! I realize I’ve been saying that for like, a week, but tonight? Tonight we will be back in our own bed! YAY!

Only hitch was that when we peeled the tape off the window trim, the top layer of trim paint came with it.  Whoops.  Not a huge deal though, since we had just said "now that we have a chair rail, our window trim looks shitty" and it doesn’t mean moving out to get it repainted.  I’ll work on that tomorrow.

Of course, the trim paint coming up put the fear of lead into me.  Reading the leery polyp’s story, coupled with Amy’s son’s lead test, had me panicking. I mean, what if I get pregnant and I’m breathing in lead? WHAT IF?  I picked up some lead tests today, swabbed the most suspicious areas, and what do you know, negative.  Of course, then Dave said "Well, think of what [previous owner] did for work…"

Oh yeah.  He was an EPA air quality scientist guy, and she was a physician’s assistant. And she was about 7 months pregnant when we bought the house. And there were two other kids that lived here, too. So, um,yeah. I guess they would have probably taken care of any lead problem really quickly.

As it is, I’m on a break, I am sweating like never before, hand scrubbing the floor (some dribs and drabs of wallpaper are stuck there, which just takes some elbow grease to come up) before I sweep, vac, and mop, and then as a final touch, I will be using some Floor Rejuvenater (Couldn’t find Halloway House or Old English at the depot, natch) and then, then i can make the bed! And bring in our nightstands and such! YAY!

Still. it’s hot. It was about 93 when we went to DQ for a lunch of small blizzards, and dave even used the A/C. For dave to use the A/C? You KNOW it’s hot.

Bedroom Update

The bedroom is looking AMAZING.  Spotchecking the darker bottom color was a breeze, and we are going to get the chair rail wood after lunch.  I picked up the duvet cover I wanted, after seeing it had been put on clearance by BBB and racing over. They had ONE king left, I wanted two so i could make curtains, but ended up with a Full/Queen size instead, which will be fine.  The duvet and curtains are a white diamond quilted pattern and 100% cotton.  I could NOT find heavy white curtains, but making them of the F/Q cover will be a breeze, and they will be thick enough for privacy, but white and light enough to not make our windows look like black holes. Yay.

Even Dave has come around on the room.  (It helped that I had about 350 bucks come in unexpectedly from a few sources, to offset the furniture purchase too)  He said earlier, "You know, I was thinking about what you said about how we don’t ‘just sleep, wink wink’ in our room, and realized you were totally right.  It’s just that my view is usually of you and the bed, but yeah, you’ve had to look at some ugly stuff in there, huh?"  YES! SEE!  What 14 months of TTC-friendly sex will do to you.

(Speaking of, I think the GOF season is about to commence again. Light a candle, make a wish, send good energy, whatever. . . . )

TV, etc

Painting color has commenced.  I am now in lockdown in the downstairs, because watching it dry (SHUT UP) was killing me.  Because it dries darker, I keep thinking that it’s going to look streaky, so I did a second coat… but then the drying cycle.. well, you know? Do you? It better be okay, because I bought the Duration Home blend at Sherwin Williams and I LOVE SW, and loved EverClean, but Duration is supposed to be the improved EverClean. So, yeah. Whatever.  We started with the lighter, top color, and I hope it looks okay and dries okay.  When the wall is all wet, it looks GREAT, It’s just the drying thing making me worry. Thus, grounded to the 1st floor until it has time to DRY.

So, another thing to ponder: Television. I have watched very little TV since I got back from NYC, by choice.  I watched Brat Camp, as I said, and the Family Guy last sunday, and when I was at my folks house I watched a LOT because there is a tv with satellite in the guest room, and they went to bed early, and their internet lines are all fucked up.  I watched the Daily Show (swoon) and Airline, and a thing on the best beaches in FL (And our favorite from April was #4, whoohoo!), and a LOT of Discovery Health Channel.  Other than that, nothing. I turned on the news the day of the London bombings, but that’s it.  It is a conscious effort, for sure, because I know that if I turn ON the tv, I will get sucked in and lose whole days to the thing, So I haven’t turned it on.  That, coupled with an IM discussion with Jeanne about TV placement/rules, had me wondering — what do you do when it comes to TV?

For us, we have three.  One in the living room, one in our bedroom, and one in Dave’s fort downstairs.  We don’t have cable, but have bunny ears in the LR and Bedroom.  Dave’s fort has the best technology, but he uses it for watching movies and the occasional PS2 game.

I bought the vanity chest for the bedroom in part because it could hold and hide the tv.  (It also had greater volume for the same price, which I liked, too)  Having a TV in our room is nice, but it isn’t necessary, and it certainly doesn’t dominate our bedroom activities.  I watch it when folding laundry, ironing, or when I’m home sick in bed.  We occasionally watch the 11 oclock news, try to watch SNL up there, and sometimes I’ll watch a 10 o’clock show in bed.  That’s the extent of our bedroom tv use.  I don’t foresee adding tv to any other rooms, not the dining room or kitchen, and certainly not our kids bedrooms — but if they are ever sick, I would not be opposed to letting them watch some PBS in our room, because basically, that’s what I got growing up. 

Anyone else have any rules for TV? Do you think it dominates more of your time than you’d like? 

Lazy Hazy

Not much to report, really.  I went to the lake for a few days, which was nice, and then I came home.

We’ve been working on the room; today we primed, and tomorrow we’ll do the top color on three walls, and if I can convince Dave, the bottom color, and the big wall which will be the same as the bottom color.  Now that we’ve prepped, it really takes no time at all to paint.  We’re big fans of the disposable tray and pail liners, which makes it very easy.

Anyway.

I also had a great lunch today, with Andy and Josh.  We picked up sushi and sat by the pool at Andy’s folks’ house, as he was puppysitting for a few nights.  I was there for a few hours, and hanging out with them is always fun.  I did some errands after that, picked up the mats for my photos, looked for curtains, and found none, and came home to prime.  Dave came in shortly after I started, and he did the cutting in and I rolled, and it took less than an hour, and already looks better.  I am sooooo excited to see the final colors. it will just look so. . . . clean!

So, yeah. Not much going on.  While I haven’t watched tv as much since being on vacation, I DID see a really great show last night that I’m excited to see again.  It has the most unfortunate name, but really, it’s more documentary than reality show, truly, and even DAVE liked it.  Brat Camp is on ABC on Wednesdays at 9 (I haven’t looked for listing times for a show in AGES), and it is really, really great. It’s not a boot camp place, but it’s troubled kids in the wilderness learning self reliance and such — just. wow.  Really cool show.

Edit:  One of my readers pointed me to 63days.com, which is a blog from a girl who went through a boot camp/prison camp experience.  The SageWalk camp seems to be much more like a hippie-fueled Outward Bound with bonus intense therapy for troubled kids.  Their site even specifies that they won’t take kids who are too fucked up, basically, and kids need to be physically fit and healthy to attend.  If a kid is too heavy or thin, they can’t go.

Honestly, I am a big ol’ earth mother in waiting.  I am also very familiar with adolescents and the problems they have, and the kids on this show seem to be from very privileged homes (tuition is more than 22k for the program, and ABC didn’t recruit — Sagewalk wouldn’t let them, so these kids were signed up to go before ABC was part of it, which nixes the famewhore thing) and have problems of privilege.  Like, one dad was interviewed about how his daughter was spoiled, and always asking for money, and then she’d buy drugs with it. (Which makes me think, um, don’t give her money?)  The most distasteful thing on the show was that two parents were identified as "Kid’s Adoptive Mother" which was really unnecessary.  If it were a foster situation, that might take clarification. But Adoptive Mothers are Mothers, too.

My interest in Sagewalk is because I think that so many kids get sucked away from their own humanity by all the excess around them.  In the high desert, they are forced to learn who they are, and forced to learn some self sufficiency.  They aren’t forced through weird mind-games or war prisoner torture tactics, but by given time to actually THINK without ringtones and iPods and tv and movies ALWAYS ON.  Really, it’s more documentary than reality tv.  So many kids don’t know who they ARE, or how to function as part of the general community, and the sagewalk approach is a really refreshing and simple program — that costs a small fortune to attend.

One more edit:  This program, New Horizons, is located in Springfield, not far from where I grew up.  Incidentally, it’s founder is the daughter of Barbara Walters, and she went to a similar program when she was a teen, and obviously, she thought it was okay.  There is a difference between boot camp and therapy intervention programs are really, really vast.  Like talk therapy, or group therapy, compared to electroshock, or rebirth therapy.

Tips for Living

1)  When traveling, use big ol’ diaper pins to keep the zips of your pack closed.  Sure, it’s not rocket science, but it slows down pickpockets, no?

2) Also, when traveling, keep your debit card in one bag and your credit card in another.  Keep some cash in your pocket in case you get mugged. "Dude, all I have is 8 bucks."

3)  Wear good shoes when flying! Okay, this is my own neurosis (like the other two aren’t) but I remember reading in a Reader’s Digest or something, years ago, that if there is a survivable plane crash, you need to expect to walk over hot metal and sharp objects. Good point, no? So I always wear good solid shoes when flying, and always get a little freaked out by people in flip-flops.

4) Baking soda with water as a paste makes a really great facial cleanser. Or add it to your favorite stuff, it’s sooo tingly.

5) Here’s a new one:  In stripping the wallpaper, we have to wash and scuff off the little brown bits of backing that got left behind, which is always a pain in the ass.  Here’s my new solution, as of about 3 hours ago:  Exfoliating Gloves!  My mom has given me two pair so far, and I never use them, but today I thought, hmmm.  I wear one glove, King of Pop style, and have a bowl of warm water, and I can scuff off the brown bits and wash down the walls in preparation for spackling all at once! It is truly amazing.  Plus, the glove gives you total control, you can pick into the corners and moderate pressure as needed.  Works best with a rubber glove underneath, and follow with a dry rag to dry the walls and pick up errant brown bits.

6)  Always keep a box of latex gloves on hand. Har Har.  I use mine for nasty cleaning jobs, opening jars, painting, hair dye (when I used to do that, those plastic lunch lady gloves that come with the dye SUUUUCK), and now, wallpaper removal.  Good stuff.  I always include a box when I’m giving a housewarming gift.

7)  Microfiber cloths, cut into smaller pieces, are the best for cleaning optical lenses with a non-glare coating.

8)  Backup important documents on gmail.  Send them to yourself, you have 2 gb of storage! And it’s fire, flood, and weatherproof!

9)  Buy striped sheets so that you don’t have to always try to remember which corner goes where. Or, put red Xes on the two bottom corners to save frustration.

10)  Boiling water and baking soda is the best plunger when it comes to natural causes. It may take several kettles, but it ALWAYS works. Boil, pour, let sit.  Repeat until you hear the blockage let go.

11.)  When it comes to hiccups, use the Trick!  I have never seen this fail, my kids loved it, and always taught others how to do it.  It’s a variation on "drink from the other side of the glass."  Take a mouthful of water (at school this was from the fountain, of course) and bend over at the waist so you’re looking at your knees. THEN swallow.  Works every. single. time. (And doesn’t involve finding some certain food — peanut butter, sugar — or needing to yell BOO! every 2 minutes. Try it!)

There’s my top 11. What are your tips for living?

Blarrgghhhh

Holy shit, I ordered furniture. Gulp.  I ordered the two pieces in black, the triple dresser and vanity chest.  I waffled on getting both for a while, but then was like, well, fuck it.  Because half of the money was gift money, I couldn’t count that, and by putting 75% down (they have to order it, of course, my furniture guy gets a kick out of me, I think, because I NEVER get stock) I figured it was like making 2 payments, not spending that much at once. Right?  And thinking of it as 2 payments from 2 paychecks makes it okay. It still makes my stomach lurch to spend that much money, but we have no debts other than the house and car, and my student loans (but like THAT counts right now) and we have savings and I CAN afford to do it…. plus, as I told Dave, it’s not like a headboard or something decorative.  By buying these two pieces, it’s almost like adding a walk in closet.  We will have trimmed down our bedroom furniture by one piece, and it will look GOOD.  And while yes, most of our time in there is spent with our eyes closed (as Dave likes to argue) having this room DONE will be SO NICE. 

We’ve stripped all of the paper on three walls, and will do the fourth after supper, and tomorrow we will spackle, tape and prime.  In a week or so, we will do the final painting, and add a chair rail, and then when the furniture is in, I’ll have it delivered. Cannot. Freaking. Wait.  After our room is Done, all that’s left is the hallway, which, whatever, we need a ladder to do it (for the stairwell) and we don’t have the right one yet.  The bathroom, eventually, will get an update, but it’s not HORRIBLE. Not crazy LSD circus tent fugly like our room has been, anyway.  CAN’T WAIT.

And as much as Dave sort of hems and haws about spending money on our bedroom, even he is looking at the three stripped walls and saying "THIS even looks better than it did before."  He likes the colors, too, he picked them, so he’ll like it when it’s done. I KNOW he will.  And yes, while we do spend most of our time asleep in there, we do other things too, ahem, and it will be so nice to have the setting be a romantic room instead of an abandoned yard sale.  Just sayin.

Wallpaper

I ended up mindlessly picking at the top layer of wallpaper in our bedroom this afternoon, and ended up peeling off giant sheets of it.  Then I decided to see how the second layer was adhered to the drywall, and lo and behold, it WASN’T.  YES, it’s hideous old paper, but I think the previous owners did as I discovered in the other rooms (with the exception of that one wall in the sewing room) and sealed over the original 1954 wallpaper (cabbage roses EVERYWHERE! It prevents russian missile attacks!) makingmy job, 51 years later, that much easier.  I wet a rag and picked away, and found that with moisture, it peeled off relatively easily.  (Relative to that one damn wall in the sewing room, that had me wondering if we should just relist our house and move on to some builder’s beige condo somewhere.)

And, well, once I started, I kept going.  Dave and I just moved the heaviest pieces of furniture into the hall (shitty dresser #1 and cute, sentimental, but way impractical for my needs dead-nana’s dresser #2) and I’ve peeled the top layer off of one entire wall, dug out my depapering supplies from last year, and am giving the DIF another go in a test spot right now.  I’m just waiting for the proper amount of time to pass.

ANYWAY.  One of the hard parts of choosing furniture. Or paint. Or bedding, is having ZERO idea of what is going on in there.  yeah, remember when I had it figured out?  After a week, Dave decided it looked like dried blood, and it was icking him out. DAVE.  The horror-movie aficionado was creeped out by paint.  We’ve been going back and forth on What to Do, and Dave, while having firm opinions on what he DOESN’T like, can’t really ever say what he DOES like. Sigh.

When re realized I’d bitten the bullet and forced the paint-hand, we went off to get more ideas.  At the furniture store, He was okay with the furniture, but liked the dark wood stuff better, but not the maple.  I had pretty much fallen head over heels for the black stuff, and got the internet to back me on that one, but Dave ended up saying "eh, I don’t care, I’ll only be looking at it when I sleep, so who cares? I’m fine with what we have now."  And I hate to be all gender-stereotyping, but really, it was very typical manliness.  He also wants the tv, which we really rarely watch (sometimes when I’m ironing in the morning, or the 11 o’clock news, or when I’m folding laundry, or when I’m sick) and is only a 13 inch model — on a flexible wall mount.  You know, like in AIRPORTS. I am vehemently opposed to sleeping and fucking in a ticketed passengers only area.  He likes to have the TV high, which is understandable, since our bed is so high, and that’s why I liked the chest.  But he thinks he’d put the TV ON TOP of it. Sigh.

It’s understandable, though, since our room has been such a chaotic place for so long.  I mean, everyone said "well, what do you have in there now? What does the room look like?" and I only half-jokingly answered "crime scene."  Really, though, beige gingham wallpaper over a hideous red/yellow/blue diamond pattern paper, so hideous you could see it THROUGH the gingham stuff if the light was right, covered the walls.  And there were spots where we’d peeled it back, knowing it was coming down, to see what the hell was underneath.  Oh, and the dozen or so color samples splashed on the walls at various heights, some of which looked like dried blood, if you asked Dave.  Our curtains are purple canvas-y ones from sears that I got when we moved in because we needed curtains for privacy, and they were on clearance for like, 4 bucks.  The bed is a platform that dave made, that is fine, but our nightstands consist of one black lacquer with gold trim (you KNOW the style, picture it with a Tab soda and a Jackie Collins book on top) that is Dave’s, and serves the secondary purpose (or primary, depending on how sappy we may be) of being the step for the cat to get on the bed.  The other is a tall white melamine bathroom shelf from Target.  It has four shelves with a canvas bin for each, but I removed the top two and use that for books and tissues, etc, and the bottom two bins have other books and um, some adult novelties.  Our tv sits on a microwave cart, and on the open shelf are the two canvas bins from my nightstand, one for my undies and one for Dave’s boxers.  Behind the doors in the bottom is a cardboard box that holds all of our socks.  My dresser is from my dead Nana’s farm, and cute and adorable and has bad drawers for opening and closing and is way too small.  That will go into the nursery, as those will be assets and not liabilities for a kid.  Dave’s is a 3 drawer chest that was a throwaway from my folks’ condo, and the runners are rusted, and it also has bad drawer maneuvarability, but it will be curbed and not kept.  Oh, and we have that one standard 1954 closet that we share, which is okay as far as pole space (I hang up maybe 10 things, but dave hangs t-shirts, but because of my small dresser, all of my sweaters and pants are in a pile on the floor of the closet.  My dresser only holds shirts.)

You can see why I’m giddy over the notion of dressers, I’m sure.  And since we had that decision, we went to sherwin williams and picked out paint, finally, a more sagey-gray green, with a chair rail, and a very light sagey green for the top.  (from the color card, it’s the very top color, and then the 4th one down, if that makes sense.)  We also went and looked at trim for the chair rail, and then we came home and I went back to work on the paper after dinner.

So, yes. Dressers.  Lots of bad shit in the world today, that I can’t even comprehend, but I can comprehend dressers.  I’ll order them this weekend, and set a delivery date for 2 weeks or so from now, which will get our asses in gear to get the room DONE, which is always good. It worked for the guest room, the furniture delivery deadline, and will work for our room too. Yay! I cannot wait.